When friendships fall...

I am the type of person who has never or will never have a lot of friends. That's OK because I'm shy. But so far, I don't understand why I probably am the only person who has that many friendships fall apart. Am I annoying? It hurts really bad, especially today.

- Take Hannah. She was very very nice to me when we took JOU 308 together. We went out to meals, practicing driving, drinking. I love talking to her about journalism. She just got into it. So I thought she loved talking about it too. I was jealous that she got the internship in Washington, D.C., but that was it. We met again in Burlington and I thought everything was cool. I was alone in Burlington so having a friend over was what I really loved. She left Burlington and we promised to see each other again in D.C. Four months without hearing from her. And then an reply e-mail came in September, saying that I was the most annoying friend she had and she had no intention of having me as a friend. And that she was sick of me complaining. Why didn't tell me in Burlington? Why later? Why ignoring my phone calls?

- Then Nam, whom I thought was a very close high school friend. Last semester, we hit it off perfectly well. We were even planning for a get together in Florida during Christmas. Now, he did not return my call nor my email even though I am moving to Austin.

- Then Lingbing. Though we are not friend, she was the first person I knew in Morgantown. At least, we had 1 day driving around Morgantown when I first came here to do paperwork. After asking her to help me with my photo assignment, and she refused, I apologized, and now she ignored seeing me at one of the j-school events tonight.

- Then Jenna. my roommate, whom I thought we hit well for the first 6 months. Suddenly, saying Hi is awkward and ignoring my presence is what she does.

My big question to me is WHY PEOPLE HATE ME THIS MUCH?